In the previous post we talked about if joy REALLY is our natural state, where we got an intro into energetic leaks and how they’re a result of traumas, so if you haven’t read that yet check that out first, because we’re going to continue this thread talking about internal resistance and the 3 stages to releasing our baggage!
As someone who is an advocate for easeful living, one differentiation I always make is that easeful is not the same as easy, for example think about that thing you do where after a 5 minutes goes by you’re like ‘sh*t I thought that was 5 minutes that went by, but that was 5 hours’ and compare that to the 5 hours of homework you felt you did, that was really only 5 minutes.
Now let’s bring that concept into a desire you have, an outcome you want, something that is supposed to make you feel great, but for some reason a step in that direction feels like you’re doing homework vs that fun activity you always do…
Why is that? Isn’t it something you truly desire? Then why is something that only needs 5kJ of energy taking up 500kJ?… *drum roll* Internal resistance.
Imagine your existence being a downhill flowing stream, and you’re on a boat going down this stream, the only real effort you need to do is paddle left or right a bit as the momentum of the stream is taking you where you need. This is you in alignment = no internal resistance.
Now imagine you’re going down this stream and with one pedal you’re turning left, and with the other one you’re turning right, at best you’re just going to go in circle. This is you out of alignment = internal resistance.
And the reason I’m bringing this up is, it means us looking at resolving and re-integrating any traumas that we have a number 1 priority before even taking action towards the direction we want to go, else we’re always going to be going in circles, or face a lot of hardships (and I’m not referring to the challenges we need to grow in this tense).
Because the truth is you can, it doesn’t have to feel like effort for you to move in the direction of your excitement and joy, but first you have to make sure all the parts within you are aligned to be going in the same direction.
I like to refer to it as integration work, but what I’m talking about here is shadow work… Reintegrating aspects of yourself that may have split and returning to a state of wholeness.
Now whichever way you choose to do this, there’s always 3 stages you go through.
You can’t find a solution to a problem you don’t know exists! Which means the first step is awareness (which btw has already begun the healing process, and sometimes is the only step needed).
This is as simple as identifying which trigger, beliefs, emotions you see or feel that regularly come up, is there a certain feeling you ALWAYS feel in a certain situation, i.e. a constriction when you’re about to speak your truth, or a fear of looking a certain way in front of someone.
We all have something and ironically, I was arrogant enough to think I had no beliefs or anything holding me back, before I had even actually grasped the concept of what a belief is…
But one thing that helped me identify certain patterns and blocks within myself was journaling, every day in the evening I would write down what my common thoughts were during the day, and the events that stuck out to me and how I felt in those situations.
And then at the end of the week I would sit down and review the past 7 days, most weeks being astonished to see how repetitive these thoughts and emotions I was experiencing were, like literally it was like I lived the same day every day sometimes.
If you’re having trouble just start asking yourself questions, think of an outcome you want and just ponder why you haven’t got it yet? Because you have to be the kind of person who has X to have X, so what traits or internal obstacle are in the way?
Do you want a better financial situation, but really you think all rich people are evil? Do you want to start a new project but afraid of the judgements you receive?
Awareness is the biggest step and allows the next stage to unfold…
This step is all about going back to the original time you felt this.
Now there’s a reason I put revealed there in brackets, because I want you to know that your being won’t pull up something you’re not ready for, so don’t worry about opening pandora’s box… If anything, you can just ask for guidance from you higher self, or an energy you trust while you do this.
The magic of the first step is that whatever we identified, if it wasn’t a feeling, it results in a feeling… this is our gateway to remembering the first time we felt this. (And btw we never forget what happened, our subconscious always knows, that’s why it keeps playing out situations to bring it to light… so don’t doubt yourself just trust! And if anything pretend, because that works too!)
First you want to get acclimatised to the feeling and really get to know it without judgment… Where does it originate in your body? What qualities does it have? If it were a colour, what colour would it be?
Once you’ve got a feel for it, I want you then to dive into it and let it take you back to the first time you experienced it. This may be an actual memory, or maybe just a more intense/different feeling, and remember pretending works too! Because essentially our goal is to do what’s in the final step, regardless to how we do it…
Now what’s left is to bring closure to the memory (or feeling if you didn’t get a memory), and this step can happen in many ways.
A lot of the time it’s just letting out the emotion, whether it be crying, screaming into a pillow. I often tend to just sit with the feeling patiently and without judgement, and I just watch how the feeling moves and changes as I just breathe into it and put my awareness on it.
Or the other popular method is to re-enact the memory, go back to that memory as the you today and give that younger aspect of yourself what it needs.
And then when you’re done or need to stop the sessions for now, just visualise yourself breathing in white light, then holding your breath to let the white light clean up the any residues or emotion, and finally breathing out those residues visualising black smoke, until naturally your visualisation results in you breathing in and out that white light.
Integration work is the closest I’ve come to overnight change; I’ve literally had opportunities or answers pop up straight in my face that were there the whole time! But the thing was certain traumas/beliefs/emotions act almost like a filtered lens preventing you from seeing the solutions that already exist (Remember we live in a dualistic plane, so the problem can never exist without the solution).
You really owe it to yourself to give yourself that love and care to dissolve and reintegrate aspects of you that have been leaking your energy and wanting to come back for so long, so you can move forward with all your cellves together in wholeness!
Wishing you an Easeful Existence,
P.S. If you want more info about Integration Work I will be putting more content out as this is one of my cornerstones for transformation, meanwhile I HIGHLY recommend Teal Swans stuff and some of David Snyder, all on YouTube.
Also, I do guided meditations based on what I’ve learnt for a real quick and easy way for finding the revealed root and processing the emotions (Stages 2&3). Although I myself often prefer to go the more traditional way I described.
P.S.S. I also have a podcast episode related to this topic in which I discuss many of the points mentioned.
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